letting go

I was in the stage 

of moving on.

I was discarding everything 

taht reminds me of our past,

though it's heavy in my heart

but I need to submit

myself to the idea of living

a separate life apart 

from the one I love.

Days passed and I was able

to manage being

away living on my own...

but when I saw him

with someone new, 

I broke down into tears

and suddenly I realized,

YES i've moved on...

but I forgot to let go...

continue to breathe

I let go of what 

I thought was mine.

It hurts, yes,

a lot actually but as

I got through each day

wihtout him

I realized

taht the world would

just keep on

turning and

I had to continue

BREATHING.

soooo unfair!

Unfair is when I never

asked him to stay

but he promised he will

and later on walk away.

Unfair is when he had

moved on 

and I was left 

stranded.

Unfair is when he found

someone new and I also did

but chose to

love him still.

Unfair is when someone

comes again 

but my heart refuses to see

for the fear of

getting hurt again...

pretending maybe an answer

Its really hard to show

everybody how you feel, 

scared of letting them know

what's bothering you...

Sometimes lying would be

an excelent remedy to

overshadow the tears

from your eyes...

You hide the pain by

smiling, you hide the tears

by laughing,

and you hide the sadness

by lying...

And sometimes you just 

want trade your life

just to experience a

minute of hapiness that

will really change

EVERYTHING...

But that what makes it ironic,

the more you seek

for hapiness,

the more you 

loose it.

i love ...

I failed to understand

a few things.

I even, at times, 

close my mind from

matters I never want

to face.

I get depressed.

I mess up when I can't

manage everything

coming by.

I cry when I can't 

help myself anymore.

I mourne.

 

I become sad.

I try to transform 

myemotions into

something else,

just to forget.

I lie.

I make mistakes.

I get jealous and upset.

I feel down like a toy

being dumped.

I am hurt.

But still choose to

EXIST.

Just because

I love...