realizations

i failed to understand a few things. i even, at times, close my mind from matters i never want to face. i get depressed. i mess up when i can’t manage everything coming by. i cry when i can’t help myself anymore. i mourn, i become sad. i try to transform my emotions into something else, just to forget. i lie. i make mistakes. i get jealous and upset. i feel down like a toy being dumped. i am hurt. but i still choose to exist just because…. i love…